All I ever needed was for you to love me.
All I ever needed was for you to hold me,
All i ever wanted was for you to hug me.
All I ever wanted was for you to love me,
I sit in the 4 walls, blood runs down as I slit my wrists, pain, a sense I feel no more.
I see the otherside, still watching the ground fill with blood.
All I needed was you.

Horrified as I walked through the corridor, once I saw his face I felt horror more. I was there on a scam looking at the man that gave me my last name, ____. Damn.... See... I was not allowed in the hospital, nor the prison... but I'll find my family... son's intuition. So I saw my idol in a bad way yet so strong. Who knew the next time we spoke he'd be gone. A cold hand, a hard face, do people only write when your erased? He maintained a respect for my mother, never did he degrade in front of me or my brother.

Too much vodka is not enough, and I've died from what a doctor has prescribed.

Poetry #2

Ecstasy

The Feel of your skin against my hands
Makes me quiver with anticipation
I need to have all of you
Bring you to the edge
That spiritual union of two souls lost in each others body
The things I would do to you can't be explained
You'll have to wait and see, and trust It is all about you
My greatest joy would be taking you there
To that point, no thoughts in our heads but the simple bliss
Chills running down our backs as the moment nears
An eruption of emotions and feelings both physical and mental.
As we lay there starting to come down,
I hold you so close, and gently tickle your body with my fingertips
Making those chills run all over your body
I'm lost in your eyes, and the feelings are so strong.
I now start over and gently tease to the point again
Another release that brings us closer
The ecstasy I feel is you.

My One

Laughter and happiness
Sadness and hard times
I can feel your emotions,
Its like I can tell what you’re feeling
We complete each other’s sentence
and I cry when your upset
I hurt inside when I know you are hurting
because it pains me to not be there to hold you
You are my one
The one who completes me
A connection on a so much deeper level
Making love I touch your soul
gazing into your eyes I am lost
I become one with you
and I feel your innermost desires
You are My one, The only one for me
I want to give you all you deserve
and show you everyday what you mean to me
and how much you have affected me.
My One.

The Storm

The Rain Drips from the overflowing Gutters
Landing atop My head soaking to the bone
The peace I once had, Knowing I was
protected from the rain, Is now a fading
memory. If only I could go back in time to
when the gutters were not filled with anger
and resentment toward one another. Another
time, where they worked to protect me. It
seems the storm is just too strong. I am no
longer shielded from its wrath. At least
the rain will hide the tears, as I watch My
parents say goodbye, Leaving me alone to
drown in the sorrow of the storm.

Desperate Times

The time of death grows close by
Although I’m scared my eyes don’t cry
For if I leave I leave Behind
A Shattered World of Desperate Times.

No Title

How will I know if this is true
The love I feel so fresh and new
Our time we share as only friends
Your time consumed by other men
I cannot read the signs you show

No Title

I’m Going Crazy
Out of my Head
I’m feeling Crazy
No one can help me
I’ve slipped into sorrow
Don’t care about tomorrow
Take a step back from your Life
And find your feelings deep inside
Tell me what does it mean
In a life with no meaning
Away from all the troubles in the world
What I’ve Become
I gave you my heart and gave you my soul
But you turned your back on me
I wanted to make you lose control
But you wouldn’t let me
Now that you’re gone I’m Feelin alone
My Heart is black now
Can anyone help me fill this hole
Before I’m swallowed up inside
I feel Like I’m Drowning
Losing control
Thoughts are all twisted
Skin growing cold
It’s Taken Away my life
Can ya help me ease the pain
The pain I am Feeling
Someone stop the pain
Can you help me
My Minds insane
My Body’s numb
I Can’t Escape
What I’ve Become.

Daddies Boy

I have left you behind, behind in life’s game
All to move forward with nothing to gain
If I only knew then how much it would hurt
I may have changed it all, thrown dreams to the dirt
For all I have now, all around me is grand
My Life and my things all surround me in hand
The one thing I want for is something I can’t have
But for court ordered visits, alone with your dad.
I love you my Son, lest you ever forget,
I did this all for you, I can’t live with regret
One day I will have you, together always,
And I will never leave you the rest of our days.
I didn’t abandon, or leave cause of you,
There was lots going on, I hate putting you through
I want you to know not a moment goes by,
I don’t think about you, waiting to break down and cry
For you are my world, Daddies Big Boy,
Your love isn’t bought with houses and toys.
For you I will sacrifice, myself if I must
So that you can have everything especially my trust
Know That I love you and know that I’m here
Tell mommy to call me if only to hear
My voice on the phone, as I love to hear you
You’re growing so quickly, My Little man, its true
And I’ll love you forever, but it makes me so blue.
When you lay your head down at night remember in your heart
The stars you see up in the sky are so much further than we’re apart
So as you see them, I do too remember forever I’m here for you
You give me the call I’ll be there in a flash, I fight of you nightmares
Or things that go crash.
There’s nothing you can’t tell me, not one word that can’t be said.
I Love you Jimmy, Sweet dreams from your dad.

I tried to get high until the pains over, yet the real pain gained as I got close to sober. Shoulder holster wrapped tight upon my right shoulder, protecting my ground from surrounding vultures. I notice lately my reflection looks a lot meaner, is that myself... or just my demeanor?