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Thursday, February 6, 2020
All I ever needed was for you to love me.
All I ever needed was for you to hold me,
All i ever wanted was for you to hug me.
All I ever wanted was for you to love me,
I sit in the 4 walls, blood runs down as I slit my wrists, pain, a sense I feel no more.
I see the otherside, still watching the ground fill with blood.
All I needed was you.
All I ever needed was for you to hold me,
All i ever wanted was for you to hug me.
All I ever wanted was for you to love me,
I sit in the 4 walls, blood runs down as I slit my wrists, pain, a sense I feel no more.
I see the otherside, still watching the ground fill with blood.
All I needed was you.
Horrified as I walked through the corridor, once I saw his face I felt horror more. I was there on a scam looking at the man that gave me my last name, ____. Damn.... See... I was not allowed in the hospital, nor the prison... but I'll find my family... son's intuition. So I saw my idol in a bad way yet so strong. Who knew the next time we spoke he'd be gone. A cold hand, a hard face, do people only write when your erased? He maintained a respect for my mother, never did he degrade in front of me or my brother.
Poetry #2
Ecstasy
The Feel of your skin against my hands
Makes me quiver with anticipation
I need to have all of you
Bring you to the edge
That spiritual union of two souls lost in each others body
The things I would do to you can't be explained
You'll have to wait and see, and trust It is all about you
My greatest joy would be taking you there
To that point, no thoughts in our heads but the simple bliss
Chills running down our backs as the moment nears
An eruption of emotions and feelings both physical and mental.
As we lay there starting to come down,
I hold you so close, and gently tickle your body with my fingertips
Making those chills run all over your body
I'm lost in your eyes, and the feelings are so strong.
I now start over and gently tease to the point again
Another release that brings us closer
The ecstasy I feel is you.
My One
Laughter and happiness
Sadness and hard times
I can feel your emotions,
Its like I can tell what you’re feeling
We complete each other’s sentence
and I cry when your upset
I hurt inside when I know you are hurting
because it pains me to not be there to hold you
You are my one
The one who completes me
A connection on a so much deeper level
Making love I touch your soul
gazing into your eyes I am lost
I become one with you
and I feel your innermost desires
You are My one, The only one for me
I want to give you all you deserve
and show you everyday what you mean to me
and how much you have affected me.
My One.
The Storm
The Rain Drips from the overflowing Gutters
Landing atop My head soaking to the bone
The peace I once had, Knowing I was
protected from the rain, Is now a fading
memory. If only I could go back in time to
when the gutters were not filled with anger
and resentment toward one another. Another
time, where they worked to protect me. It
seems the storm is just too strong. I am no
longer shielded from its wrath. At least
the rain will hide the tears, as I watch My
parents say goodbye, Leaving me alone to
drown in the sorrow of the storm.
Desperate Times
The time of death grows close by
Although I’m scared my eyes don’t cry
For if I leave I leave Behind
A Shattered World of Desperate Times.
No Title
How will I know if this is true
The love I feel so fresh and new
Our time we share as only friends
Your time consumed by other men
I cannot read the signs you show
No Title
I’m Going Crazy
Out of my Head
I’m feeling Crazy
No one can help me
I’ve slipped into sorrow
Don’t care about tomorrow
Take a step back from your Life
And find your feelings deep inside
Tell me what does it mean
In a life with no meaning
Away from all the troubles in the world
What I’ve Become
I gave you my heart and gave you my soul
But you turned your back on me
I wanted to make you lose control
But you wouldn’t let me
Now that you’re gone I’m Feelin alone
My Heart is black now
Can anyone help me fill this hole
Before I’m swallowed up inside
I feel Like I’m Drowning
Losing control
Thoughts are all twisted
Skin growing cold
It’s Taken Away my life
Can ya help me ease the pain
The pain I am Feeling
Someone stop the pain
Can you help me
My Minds insane
My Body’s numb
I Can’t Escape
What I’ve Become.
Daddies Boy
I have left you behind, behind in life’s game
All to move forward with nothing to gain
If I only knew then how much it would hurt
I may have changed it all, thrown dreams to the dirt
For all I have now, all around me is grand
My Life and my things all surround me in hand
The one thing I want for is something I can’t have
But for court ordered visits, alone with your dad.
I love you my Son, lest you ever forget,
I did this all for you, I can’t live with regret
One day I will have you, together always,
And I will never leave you the rest of our days.
I didn’t abandon, or leave cause of you,
There was lots going on, I hate putting you through
I want you to know not a moment goes by,
I don’t think about you, waiting to break down and cry
For you are my world, Daddies Big Boy,
Your love isn’t bought with houses and toys.
For you I will sacrifice, myself if I must
So that you can have everything especially my trust
Know That I love you and know that I’m here
Tell mommy to call me if only to hear
My voice on the phone, as I love to hear you
You’re growing so quickly, My Little man, its true
And I’ll love you forever, but it makes me so blue.
When you lay your head down at night remember in your heart
The stars you see up in the sky are so much further than we’re apart
So as you see them, I do too remember forever I’m here for you
You give me the call I’ll be there in a flash, I fight of you nightmares
Or things that go crash.
There’s nothing you can’t tell me, not one word that can’t be said.
I Love you Jimmy, Sweet dreams from your dad.
The Feel of your skin against my hands
Makes me quiver with anticipation
I need to have all of you
Bring you to the edge
That spiritual union of two souls lost in each others body
The things I would do to you can't be explained
You'll have to wait and see, and trust It is all about you
My greatest joy would be taking you there
To that point, no thoughts in our heads but the simple bliss
Chills running down our backs as the moment nears
An eruption of emotions and feelings both physical and mental.
As we lay there starting to come down,
I hold you so close, and gently tickle your body with my fingertips
Making those chills run all over your body
I'm lost in your eyes, and the feelings are so strong.
I now start over and gently tease to the point again
Another release that brings us closer
The ecstasy I feel is you.
My One
Laughter and happiness
Sadness and hard times
I can feel your emotions,
Its like I can tell what you’re feeling
We complete each other’s sentence
and I cry when your upset
I hurt inside when I know you are hurting
because it pains me to not be there to hold you
You are my one
The one who completes me
A connection on a so much deeper level
Making love I touch your soul
gazing into your eyes I am lost
I become one with you
and I feel your innermost desires
You are My one, The only one for me
I want to give you all you deserve
and show you everyday what you mean to me
and how much you have affected me.
My One.
The Storm
The Rain Drips from the overflowing Gutters
Landing atop My head soaking to the bone
The peace I once had, Knowing I was
protected from the rain, Is now a fading
memory. If only I could go back in time to
when the gutters were not filled with anger
and resentment toward one another. Another
time, where they worked to protect me. It
seems the storm is just too strong. I am no
longer shielded from its wrath. At least
the rain will hide the tears, as I watch My
parents say goodbye, Leaving me alone to
drown in the sorrow of the storm.
Desperate Times
The time of death grows close by
Although I’m scared my eyes don’t cry
For if I leave I leave Behind
A Shattered World of Desperate Times.
No Title
How will I know if this is true
The love I feel so fresh and new
Our time we share as only friends
Your time consumed by other men
I cannot read the signs you show
No Title
I’m Going Crazy
Out of my Head
I’m feeling Crazy
No one can help me
I’ve slipped into sorrow
Don’t care about tomorrow
Take a step back from your Life
And find your feelings deep inside
Tell me what does it mean
In a life with no meaning
Away from all the troubles in the world
What I’ve Become
I gave you my heart and gave you my soul
But you turned your back on me
I wanted to make you lose control
But you wouldn’t let me
Now that you’re gone I’m Feelin alone
My Heart is black now
Can anyone help me fill this hole
Before I’m swallowed up inside
I feel Like I’m Drowning
Losing control
Thoughts are all twisted
Skin growing cold
It’s Taken Away my life
Can ya help me ease the pain
The pain I am Feeling
Someone stop the pain
Can you help me
My Minds insane
My Body’s numb
I Can’t Escape
What I’ve Become.
Daddies Boy
I have left you behind, behind in life’s game
All to move forward with nothing to gain
If I only knew then how much it would hurt
I may have changed it all, thrown dreams to the dirt
For all I have now, all around me is grand
My Life and my things all surround me in hand
The one thing I want for is something I can’t have
But for court ordered visits, alone with your dad.
I love you my Son, lest you ever forget,
I did this all for you, I can’t live with regret
One day I will have you, together always,
And I will never leave you the rest of our days.
I didn’t abandon, or leave cause of you,
There was lots going on, I hate putting you through
I want you to know not a moment goes by,
I don’t think about you, waiting to break down and cry
For you are my world, Daddies Big Boy,
Your love isn’t bought with houses and toys.
For you I will sacrifice, myself if I must
So that you can have everything especially my trust
Know That I love you and know that I’m here
Tell mommy to call me if only to hear
My voice on the phone, as I love to hear you
You’re growing so quickly, My Little man, its true
And I’ll love you forever, but it makes me so blue.
When you lay your head down at night remember in your heart
The stars you see up in the sky are so much further than we’re apart
So as you see them, I do too remember forever I’m here for you
You give me the call I’ll be there in a flash, I fight of you nightmares
Or things that go crash.
There’s nothing you can’t tell me, not one word that can’t be said.
I Love you Jimmy, Sweet dreams from your dad.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Take Me in Your Arms
(Miss Heroine)
So now, little man, you've grown tired of grass
LSD, goofballs, cocaine and hash,
and someone, pretending to be a true friend,
said, "I'll introduce you to Miss Heroin."
Well honey, before you start fooling with me,
just let me inform you of how it will be.
For I will seduce you and make you my slave,
I've sent men much stronger than you to their graves.
You think you could never become a disgrace,
and end up addicted to Poppy seed waste.
So you'll start inhaling me one afternoon,
you'll take me into your arms very soon.
And once I've entered deep down in your veins,
The craving will nearly drive you insane.
You'll swindle your mother and just for a buck.
You'll turn into something vile and corrupt.
You'll mug and you'll steal for my narcotic charm,
and feel contentment when I'm in your arms.
The day, when you realize the monster you've grown,
you'll solemnly swear to leave me alone.
If you think you've got that mystical knack,
then sweetie, just try getting me off your back.
The vomit, the cramps, your gut tied in knots.
The jangling nerves screaming for one more shot.
The hot chills and cold sweats, withdrawal pains,
can only be saved by my little white grains.
There's no other way, and there's no need to look,
for deep down inside you know you are hooked.
You'll desperately run to the pushers and then,
you'll welcome me back to your arms once again.
And you will return just as I foretold!
I know that you'll give me your body and soul.
You'll give up your morals, your conscience, your heart.
And you will be mine until, "Death Do Us Part"
Thursday, March 17, 2011
For You
The touch of your hands,
things that I miss
Holding you close, on your forehead a kiss
for the one I love.
My special one, never outdone
I give me to you,
this battered ball of fears
if I could Break away, Id wipe the tears
Take the time that you needed and give it in years
for all I want is you, all I dream about, is you
things that I miss
Holding you close, on your forehead a kiss
for the one I love.
My special one, never outdone
I give me to you,
this battered ball of fears
if I could Break away, Id wipe the tears
Take the time that you needed and give it in years
for all I want is you, all I dream about, is you
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Selfish
Sitting in Sadness and I'm looking down the road
Looking for everyone and everything there is to know
Listen for the Freight train coming down, yeah
Take a little ride around inside my head
ohhhhh ooohhhh
You see me crying but you don't seem to care
The sun keeps shining down on you through your pretty hair
When you gonna open up and let me back inside
Lock up emotions that I just want to hide
ohhhhh ooohhhh
Running away from me it seems how its got to be
never even took the time to care when you checked on me
so I lay here in my utter despair
Now you laugh about it, how is that fair
ohhhhh ooohhhh
Lies your telling me oh, you tell yourself
Lies your telling me oh, you tell yourself
Lies your telling me oh, you tell yourself
Lies your telling me oh, you tell yourself
Lies the only things that come out your mouth
You don't even care about those things in life
Sit there standing on the side as I take my life
Go along now and I'll see you on the other side
crushing soul and twisting fears all come inside
ohhhhh ooohhhh
ohhhhh ooohhhh
ohhhhh ooohhhh
ohhhhh ooohhhh
Looking for everyone and everything there is to know
Listen for the Freight train coming down, yeah
Take a little ride around inside my head
ohhhhh ooohhhh
You see me crying but you don't seem to care
The sun keeps shining down on you through your pretty hair
When you gonna open up and let me back inside
Lock up emotions that I just want to hide
ohhhhh ooohhhh
Running away from me it seems how its got to be
never even took the time to care when you checked on me
so I lay here in my utter despair
Now you laugh about it, how is that fair
ohhhhh ooohhhh
Lies your telling me oh, you tell yourself
Lies your telling me oh, you tell yourself
Lies your telling me oh, you tell yourself
Lies your telling me oh, you tell yourself
Lies the only things that come out your mouth
You don't even care about those things in life
Sit there standing on the side as I take my life
Go along now and I'll see you on the other side
crushing soul and twisting fears all come inside
ohhhhh ooohhhh
ohhhhh ooohhhh
ohhhhh ooohhhh
ohhhhh ooohhhh
Friday, February 11, 2011
The Insider
Dressed in this sadness dress
sculpted from clay
with utter despair
rests the insider
always emotions, never one good
locked in tranquility
forever, for good.
sculpted from clay
with utter despair
rests the insider
always emotions, never one good
locked in tranquility
forever, for good.
Time
Time taken away, should have stayed
can't go on living this way
Left for places far away to buy the time to spend with you for days
the harder I worked the quicker I could be there for you
But time, passes, and slowly it seems,
time is catching up on me
moved back home to see you every weekend
still no time, always a rush
Daddy come play with me,
Its time for bed son maybe in the morning before your gone,
again out of my life,
your voice twinkles when I hear you through the phone
The time that I Had now has gone
washed away with my tears
and all these years stuck in the Vally
But Daddy Didn't see you enough when he lived in Iowa
so even though there were no jobs here
I came back to have Time with you.
The days now go on forever and the nights seem perpetually dark
to much time, to much alone since you've been gone.
eight hours away, my baby boy, I'll be with you soon
please understand it may be months, maybe a few
Saint Louis is the start point to get me back to you.
I love you with all my heart.
MY BABY BOY
can't go on living this way
Left for places far away to buy the time to spend with you for days
the harder I worked the quicker I could be there for you
But time, passes, and slowly it seems,
time is catching up on me
moved back home to see you every weekend
still no time, always a rush
Daddy come play with me,
Its time for bed son maybe in the morning before your gone,
again out of my life,
your voice twinkles when I hear you through the phone
The time that I Had now has gone
washed away with my tears
and all these years stuck in the Vally
But Daddy Didn't see you enough when he lived in Iowa
so even though there were no jobs here
I came back to have Time with you.
The days now go on forever and the nights seem perpetually dark
to much time, to much alone since you've been gone.
eight hours away, my baby boy, I'll be with you soon
please understand it may be months, maybe a few
Saint Louis is the start point to get me back to you.
I love you with all my heart.
MY BABY BOY
Monday, December 27, 2010
Occupied Time
Time passes by further away from you
This one part desire drives me to terror
This one goes out to you
The one I can never have.
To know me is to love me
but something else has occupied my time
so in darkness you sit, with a knife on your wrist
yearning for affection
receiving aflection
hoping for the best but something else has occupied my time
again in shame, I'm laid to blame
yearning for affection
receiving affliction
never had the time for you
at times I'd stay and cry
but something had to occupy my time
my mind is fucked can't take much more
punching holes and kicking doors
bullets in had load the 44
yearning for affection
receiving affliction
never had the time for you
This one part desire drives me to terror
This one goes out to you
The one I can never have.
To know me is to love me
but something else has occupied my time
so in darkness you sit, with a knife on your wrist
yearning for affection
receiving aflection
hoping for the best but something else has occupied my time
again in shame, I'm laid to blame
yearning for affection
receiving affliction
never had the time for you
at times I'd stay and cry
but something had to occupy my time
my mind is fucked can't take much more
punching holes and kicking doors
bullets in had load the 44
yearning for affection
receiving affliction
never had the time for you
Sunday, December 26, 2010
All I ever needed was for you to love me.
All I ever needed was for you to hold me,
All i ever wanted was for you to hug me.
All I ever wanted was for you to love me,
I sit in the 4 walls, blood runs down as I slit my wrists, pain, a sense I feel no more.
I see the otherside, still watching the ground fill with blood.
All I needed was you.
All I ever needed was for you to hold me,
All i ever wanted was for you to hug me.
All I ever wanted was for you to love me,
I sit in the 4 walls, blood runs down as I slit my wrists, pain, a sense I feel no more.
I see the otherside, still watching the ground fill with blood.
All I needed was you.
Princess
by James A Sutton
Endlessly pushing, more and more untill it seems all is about to break
Evrything rushing, no time for yourself, The wonderful person you are
always putting eveyone else ahead, The helping hand that is always there.
Not everyone appreciates your selfless giving, or understands the needs that you have
While everyone is caught up in what can be done for them, pushing untill you can do no more
When you finallay crash, Unappreciated, and feeling alone.
Always remember, your never alone. I want to be that pillar of light
Off in the distace like a lighthouse steering ships to port
The one who you can count on to always be there when your in need, not for myself,
but for you.
To hold you through the night, and wipe away your tears.
To Gently rub your hair while you tell me all your fears,
To help you through your day so your not so overwhelmed,
and laugh and talk and cry together so you know how appriciated you are
At many times in this life, the battles need to be chosen,
You are but 1 person who cannot accept demands from everyone
Some things in life are meant to be done for the self, and the happiness it brings,
Slow down and enjoy while it lasts, it all goes so quickly,
I will be here for you, Forever and always
I Promise to always love you,
And care for you,
and be someone you can escape the hectic world to
so that I can make you happy, and show you how special you really are
and do the things for you that you deserve,
My Love, My Life,
My Princess.
Copyright © 2009
Alone by James A Sutton| Lulu Poetry
Alone by James A Sutton| Lulu Poetry
Alone
by James A Sutton
I feel so alone
without you by my side
I was addicted to seeing you everyday
and now your far away
I yearn for you
and die inside each day
I cannot stand this
Like being ripped away from the only happiness
you are my one
and without you I am empty
and alone.
Copyright © 2009
Friday, December 24, 2010
REM The one I love Chords
REM--The One I Love Chords used (as they come up): Em7 : [0 2 2 0 3 0] Em : [0 2 2 0 0 0] Dsus2 : [X X 0 2 3 0] G : [3 2 0 0 0 3] D : [X X 0 2 3 2] Intro: Em7 Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I love Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I’ve left behind G D Am C A simple prop to occupy my time Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I love Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I love Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I’ve left behind G D Am C Another prop has occupied my time Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I love Em Dsus2 Em Em7 Fire (she’s comin’ down on her own, now) Em Dsus2 Em Em7 Fire (she’s comin’ down on her own, now) --------------------------------------------------------------------- For each of the; Em Dsus2 Em Em7 Fire! pieces, play 2 downstokes Em, one down of Dsus2, one down of Em, and then down up down for Em7, before repeating for the second "Fire" --------------------------------------------------------------------- Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I love Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I’ve left behind G D Am C Another prop... occupied my time Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I love Em Dsus2 Em Em7 Fire (she’s comin’ down on her own, now) Em Dsus2 Em Em7 Fire (she’s comin’ down on her own, now) Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I love Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I’ve left behind G D Am C Another prop has occupied my time Em Dsus2 Em Em7 This one goes out to the one I love (4X) Em Dsus2 Em Em7 Fire (she’s comin’ down on her own, now)
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